Wow, I am in a crappy mood today. It's rare that a writer will let you into their real world. Today, you'll get a glimpse of how I'm feeling.
In some of my previous posts, I've written about being stressed out. This takes the cake. I've made myself sick.
I have major anxiety issues right now. Too much work. Too much school. Too much wedding. It's just TOO MUCH. So, how do I deal with it? I don't. That's the problem.
Everything (and everyone) is annoying me lately. I fly off the handle and all I want to do is sleep.
I'm also depressed.
My friends complain to me about their issues and what's going on in their lives and I just want to curl up into a ball and cry.
That's my reality.
I'm usually a very happy person but when I hit a stress spell, I want to be left alone because I don't want to snap at people. Believe me, I snap. Badly.
Since I've returned from the US, I've been in a funk. I miss my family so much it hurts. All the stress from the wedding is getting to me. And my senior thesis paper... well, it hasn't been written yet. The anxiety builds every time someone in my class ask "what do you mean you haven't started writing in yet?" It actually makes me want to harm them.
People keep saying "take time for yourself." I've hit a point in my life where I KNOW I won't get time to myself until I retire.
When do I get a break?